Time for Chicago Again

Well, the plan was to make Jordan a priority. The intention of state placement was suppose to be the answer to getting him into the system and the right discharge. There he would take more of a priority...so we were told ...and so we (hesitantly) agreed. The so called PLAN and real intention became evident in a very short period of time, less than 24 hours actually, that is, not wanting him to return. For starts, before even getting off the ambulance from his transfer.... his medications (all that he had improved on after many attempts) were either changed or discontinued, which landed him in the ER the very next day and me being forced to catch the next plane out. Second was the lack of communication...zilch...nothing from this very facility that was suppose to be the answer. Oh the initial conversations went well, they even had a person discharged to Alaska because that is where they found the most appropriate program. Wow, Jordan has a chance here I thought. I worked hard to try to believe that, even though I tossed and tuned at night trying to convince myself of such hopes. I must have known. Now 6 months later and only one month away, Jordan gets to re-enter the community with no plan....plain awesome! Well then again, somewhat of a plan...time for Chicago again. I was told last week when clinically ready, that is when they leave, the other place told me that he needed more than clinical stability, if not he would keep coming back. Oh well, maybe this time things will prove to be better. At least now he will be closer, he will be here. I always said, I felt like I was in front of a moving train, just trying to stay ahead of it. Here we go again. It's true.... "every color of life is equally beautiful" and this is how were treating this one.